hate it when you try really hard and you just feel like you fail at everything, and you just really want to make something work because you know it’s going to tear you apart if you don’t.. atm I’m just scared of losing the one thing that’s kept me going over the last year and a half and I keep getting told to walk away to prove a point but have that gut feeling they’re not going to come after you and well, you really want them to more than anything :(